Inevitability

Sometimes I feel as if my life can be compared to a younger, more fit/agile person doing a handstand on a chair that balances on a bowling ball. Everything seems perfect, and even looks impressive from someone else's point of view, as long as that person keeps their balance. It may seem that this person has the easiest of times balancing, and let's pretend that they are... but eventually they will tire.

Inevitably, their arms will shake, or the chair will slip. The ball and the chair will fly in different directions. The person remains in the middle of the floor without the ball or the chair. A crowd of people watch as they fail. Alternatively the person predicts the fall and leaps away as the chair and the ball crash to the ground. The people may clap, but their disappointment of the failure to remain balanced is overwhelming.

I am that person balancing atop the chair. The self-doubt begins to corrode my confidence, and I realize that I'm no longer able to hold myself up. One wrong move, and the act disintegrates, and the only thing I'm with is a mess and disappointed faces.

Should I leap away just in time and abandon my bowling ball and chair? Or should I attempt to regain my balance, chancing a fall in the process, that could potentially end with a huge disappointment?